How to tell if you are an alcoholic

Published July 26, 2015 by almera1978

This is a very powerful article & relates to me on a personal level. I actually couldn’t have written an article that describes me so spot on xx
I’m on my way to a sober life …and articles like this reminds me of what I used to be like.

sober women awareness network (swan)

article by Sarah Hepola from

My twentysomething social life was one long drink special. Margaritas with a crust of salt on the rim, a frosty pint spilling foam, and the always regrettable “Who wants shots?”

I had always assumed my drinking would calm down after I graduated college. Instead, it ramped up. The bars opened their pearly gates to me, and I sank into those velvet banquettes and ripped vinyl couches.

I sometimes wondered if I had a problem. I had a tendency to black out — to forget episodes from a night of drinking, even though I remained surprisingly functional (well, “functional” may not be the word for someone pouring beer on her own head) — and every pamphlet, doctor’s questionnaire, and glossy magazine quiz I took listed blackouts as a risk factor for alcoholism.

The problem with checklists for alcoholism is that they look a lot like…

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Published March 12, 2015 by almera1978

I feel like I am struggling against the tide where everywhere I go Alcohol is around or involved. I am alcohol free 14 weeks tomorrow & it is getting difficult again. I am on my 4th attempt at becoming sober & I have managed 7 months and 5 months and then a few weeks.

So here I am …getting weaker and finding myself being drawn back in to alcohol’s clutches. I don’t want to be but I find myself thinking that one glass of wine won’t kill me but I know me & I won’t stop at a glass-more likely 2 bottles.

I guess I’m just writing to get this out of my system so just bear with me…

Alcohol-Free Life; A Better, Brighter Place

Published December 15, 2014 by almera1978

Fantastic blog..well done.. x

My journey, from wine lover to sober and happy...

I used to be so frightened of not drinking, not nearly so scared of all the associated horrors of downing excessive amounts of wine on a regular basis – the nights when I couldn’t remember getting home, waking up to discover horrific bruises in bizarre places, and the endless, all-consuming feelings of guilt, shame and self-hatred that would linger for days after each terrible binge.

I’m fascinated by this phenomenon now, as with several years of sobriety behind me I can’t believe I was ever scared of becoming alcohol-free. I love my life today, and there isn’t a single thing about booze that I miss or wish still featured in my daily existence. Much has been written (on Soberistas and elsewhere on the internet) about the obvious positives that stem from sober living; weight loss, brighter eyes, more money, heightened self-esteem, increased productivity at work and so on. But what…

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Feeling the Pain

Published September 15, 2014 by almera1978

My journey, from wine lover to sober and happy...

A few years ago, a friend of mine was spending time with a woman he’d met on a dating website. He told me that she didn’t drink alcohol and that, by her own admittance, this was because she had felt out of control with it. At the time I felt sorry for her, and I briefly wondered about the half-existence it must be to live and never drink.

Right now I am going through a challenging time personally. This is why I am sitting in the kitchen in the early hours while everyone else in the house is fast asleep; with my thoughts churning as I lay in the dark in bed, I thought I may as well be up and trying to make sense of what I’m feeling.


Before I went to bed last night, I pondered, for only a very brief moment, the notion of drinking alcohol; how…

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Nervous & Scared :'(

Published September 15, 2014 by almera1978

I am starting to panic..I mean really panic. I have been sober again for exactly 4 months today & am very content & quite pleased with myself. However, I have holidays coming up & as some of you may know I am heading to Italy. For 6 nights. On my own. And I’m scared….Scared that I will give into temptation & the romance of it all, as for the past few days I’ve been thinking that maybe I will have a glass of wine or two..but I also know that that will be the beginning of my descent back into something awful.

I know for me the reality would be so different to what I’m thinking about..It would not be just one or two-it would more than likely be 1 or 2 bottles of wine…I am really struggling with these thoughts right now as it gets closer…

I also know that I would really like to just go on this holiday & have the time of my life without giving in to my!

Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated….

why we need daftness

Published March 26, 2014 by almera1978

I really couldn’t have said it better myself…I think that whatever way a person chooses to help them with their recovery, should be recognised as a good thing regardless of what other people’s opinions are. Anyone who is brave enough to seek help in whatever shape or form should be totally respected….what may suit one person may not suit another and people should be mindful of this xx